2019 marks the end of 2018 and yet another year of anticipation and new goals.
It is rarely and very seldom that I will pen in our blog. Mr USsenal definitely have a better flair of writing as compared to me.
As I am penning down at this moment, many flashbacks of so many event highlights just appeared in my mind as if it was just yesterday that it happened...
My 2018 was filled with loads of changes and well, I would say uncertainty. The last post as written by Mr USsenal was for my birthday and it was definitely the worst birthday yet most blessed one, in my 38 years of life then. I am indeed thankful for the support and love my family members and my dear friends had given me over the last few months, making this journey bearable and easier.
It took me quite a long while to get over the fact that I am indeed moving on from a job and place that I am so used to everyday. Getting out of one's most comfortable zone is indeed challenging and I have to admit that I don't even want to walk past the place even thou it is just a throw stone away from my house. That place holds far too much memorable memories for me to just move on in just the flick of time. However, I finally did and when the time I did it, I knew that I am indeed ready.
I knew that I had to be ready and had to move on when I first started my SPED teaching and tuition class time with my few but most adorable kiddos. Facing my 'eldest son' Terence was the most difficult and biggest 'ordeal' I had to do but I knew that I will be really okie if I can manage my time with him especially after seeing him for the first time after so many months.
I decided to start teaching him clay crafting and I am glad that he enjoyed it as much as I did. Seeing the smiles on his face makes me felt so comforted and once again...Worthy!!!
I had to, simply had to take in 'Xiao Pang' for almost everyday as there is simply no other centre that will take him in. Hearing his mother's cries and plea for help, I knew that I too had to do it. However, seeing his progress daily, I am feeling nothing else but thankful that Lord has placed him with me then. He helped me 'recover' faster than I expected as it was July when he came to me, hence leaving me little time to brood over the done but to move on with the undone.
At times, people says that it was the teacher that teaches the student well but to me, I am infact 'taught' by this group of loveliest children in many ways I myself can't even fathom.I am totally thankful and blessed to be able to have them in my life.
Embarking onto my ever FIRST SOLO trip to BKK in Sept.2018 without Mr USsenal's companion, Woosters Daddy's Birthday, our Duo Trip again to BKK in Nov.2018, Love Concert in Genting by Shila Amzah and also the most recent Batam New Year Countdown Trip definitely created and marked many more new memories in my new 'journey after the old one after leaving my most 'comfortable zone'. I too managed to have more ME time with my loved ones which I am so happy to be able to do so.
The most recent Batam trip is definitely the most memorable new addition memory I had added to my 2019 collection. The new addition of Limsters aka my God-daughter family aka old times neighbour of my MIL(Madam) from her old Stirling times. It is not the quality of food, not the amount of things we buy or how much we can spend in this place that makes everything memorable and nice. It is the people we met, the companion we have and most important thing is the quality time we spent bonding with our loved ones over a short yet great respite.
It might be 10pm when we were still having dinner at Love Seafood but everybody's face were still beaming as the companion was great. It might be 1am in Batam time but the anticipation and excited face of the old folks, the wow and wooooo of the rest of us makes this trip extra memorable and worthwhile while watching the fireworks together at our hotel lobby - just under the sky of beautiful Batam.
While I was standing right under the booming fireworks, I am secretly telling to my Lord of how thankful I was to be able to have this group of fabulous and loving beings with me and most of all, I am looking forward to the next trip, but with addition of my Woosters Family too.
I may not be one who have much but I am blessed with my Woosters and Chuasters family members always. In times of difficulties and sadness, they are always with me especially my Ah Lao aka Mr USsenal.
I do not know what the Lord had prepared for me in 2019 but I knew that I am ready as I strongly and always believe in this saying :
Have faith that my 2019 will be and is BETTER than 2018.
P/S : Maybe it is really time I start blogging about my many trips to BKK and more... ...