The cute girl above is named Frederike, a German who used to have a Taiwanese nanny. Well both Mrs Ussenal and me love this girl to bits as she can speak some chinese and at the same time flaunting her adorable face. Makes childless couples melt, doesnt she?
As years past, people grow. Not only in the body shape(unfortunately)but also how we think. Can a year just simply passed by without any significant changes? Can everyone's year just easily goes from Jan to Dec montonously? I think when you are young, it's easier. When you start to have a family and begin working, it doesnt seem that easy.
For a start, after my last update in this blog, there was a blow on the workfront for me. For the first time, there wasn't any performance bonus at all. It was made worse when the company had to retrench several workers due to the poor performing market in the conveyancing department. Some aquaintances left even before proper goodbyes could be said. Worry was on everyone's face and the whole office was creppily quiet with unhappy dissent. Nobody knew what could happen next. Normally such stuff would even make the bosses more paranoid; gives more pressure onto workers to ensure they themselves wouldnt get the sack.Coupled with several changes at the bank, the immediate $$ future doesnt seem too rosy even when our own department has outperformed several other teams. for near to 8 years, this has got to be the first time when you dont even know if there is $ to be spent for the Cny 2015.
From oct 2013 to current, Mrs Ussenal has not been in good health. It has turned from a normal 'oh just take the norma med' to something which has taken much more concentration and focus. Be it from stress from work or elsewhere, it has opened me up to how easily we take good health for granted. What is the point of earning that steak when we cant even eat it? Ask any sick person and you will know how much worth is good health. It has also made me more aware about taking that extra chilli or sweet drink. However I learnt another thing when there were times i had to be personally there for Mrs Ussenal when she was sick and weak. I came to realise what the marriage vows I took all meant actually.
When couples marry, they are happy , happy that they are handsome men marrying pretty brides and vice versa. Everything is made perfect and 100% ready to go. People say why marry when both are happy? When nobody is happy anymore, then just break and go. However, i beg to differ on why marriage is important as it brings the relationship to a higher level of understanding, responsibility and care. Relationship matters are all different levels of human feelings and responses which is why i will never believe 3 mth old relationships would have a very successful marriage because the foundations are just too premature.
When Mrs Ussenal has fallen sick, I always felt frustrated that why is she always sick nowadays. My frustration stems from the hurt and sorry i feel for her and that i cant seem to do anything really helpful either. But that taught me to be even more patient.You dont see doctors or nurses scolding patients right, be it the 1000th patient of the same few illness. I really pray that she will be fine soon and that Jesus will heal her alright. Although there have been changes in our life styles, i learnt to accept them as long as she is fine. It then taught me that life is not like a straight road all the time. Sometimes we got to move a little to adapt.
On a side note, i have finally quitted the game Maplestory. 9 years. So many friends have come and gone. I made the decision after realising its never ending of keeping up to date with the items. There was also no point since there were no more friends and gameplay was no longer what it was.
Its another 3 months to December. I pray to Jesus that everyone is kept safe and sound and always enjoy good health. In what may be a bleak year for some, i also pray that the next 3 months will pick up and let them have a strong finish to the year 2014.
Good night Blog.